The knight placed the last stone.
He knelt and bowed his
head. A sudden gust flowed over and through him, formless and fleeting as
memory. A blind hand pushed hair back from unseeing eyes.
“Farewell.” His voice
was autumn leaves and stone. “I—but then—ah. Too soon. As always. I
would—though I suppose—yet still.”
He stood slowly and
dusted his hands, though they were clean. His rouncey, a sturdy riding horse,
butted its head against his elbow, and he scratched its nose without looking. “A
small life of small achievement, yet that is no small thing,” he told it, and
it did not disagree.
It was as good a spot
as any, he supposed. The cairn lay beneath a tree. There would be shade come
summer and it would be a gentle place. It would have to suffice.
“Time is wasting.”
He stood a while
longer, unwilling to let the moment go. He looked around again and realized it
would do no good; there was no action or word that would clearly mark its end
or capture it forever like church window glass.
“Time is wasting,” he
sighed.
He collected the horse’s
reins and led it back to the road, where his courser had been tethered.
The knight rode the
grey rouncey, bearing his arms and armor. His dun courser followed behind. The
armor was unadorned, and his shield bore the device of three silver moons—waxing,
full, and waning—upon a sable field. A sword with a wire-wrapped hilt sat in a
plain scabbard.
A fog had risen while
he had laid the cairn, veiling the world until it shrank to the three of them,
the man and his two horses. They rode a wandering path through pale heather and
ghost grass, ever and always upwards into high hills capped with balding tors,
leaving the tree and river and cairn to fade into the mist. The slope made the
distance stretch and each step more painful than the last, and the way was
slow.
Through the mist he saw
a low and broad shadow, and as he drew near a great host of trees emerged, not
singly or in small groups, but at all once, a wall of wood like an army of
pikemen, bristling with spear-tipped branches.
The forest stretched
across the horizon. This late in autumn, the bare branches were as crenellated
as a castle’s battlements, dotted with the blood-red badges of a few final,
stubborn leaves. Green-furred oaks, rowan and hawthorn grew densely and closely
together, their twisted trunks and branches contorting in their fight for space
and sunlight. They swallowed the road in shadow a few steps from the forest’s
edge.
A figure sat upon a mossy,
man-high stone by the side of the road, cowled and cloaked in grey so that only
his hands could be seen. At the sound of the hoof beats upon the road, he leaped
to his feet and raised one hand high into the air, palm out, though in welcome
or warning, the knight could not tell.
“Hold squire, hold and
heed,” cried the man.
“Squire?” said the
knight, easing his horse to a halt. “No squire am I, good sir, nor have I been
for many years. Sir Bayard, I am named, knighted by King Ban himself upon the
field of Bedegraine some 30 winters past.”
The man’s arm dropped. “Not
a squire?”
“Nay, good sir. By the
white of my beard, I am over 50 winters of age. My youth is far behind, my
squire half a day’s travel back along this road.”
“Half a day’s travel,
then that is good. Your pardon, sir, for I mistook you for your squire,” the
stranger said, recovering somewhat. “I must have words with him.”
“I would be well
pleased to grant your wish, for I too desire that he and I could still speak,”
Sir Bayard sighed. “Alas, a fever took him, and no
words of ours will reach him.”
“Dead?” the man
muttered. “That is passing strange.”
“The last great mystery,”
Sir Bayard agreed. “Yet perhaps no stranger than being among the living.”
“You are a knight?”
“I am a knight.”
“A knight of
distinction and renown?”
“I am a knight.”
The cowl turned towards
the forest, and the man gestured along the road. “You will journey this way?”
“Not by choice, but honor
and hunger draw me thence. King Mark of Cornwall calls men to his banner to
support his claim against King Anguish. Even an ageing knight might find
service. This is the straightest way to his lands.”
“Then beware.”
This seemed wise
advice. “I shall,” Bayard agreed.
“Before you lies the
Savage Wood. No man enters these woods, but he loses that which he holds most
dear, fails to attain that which he most desires, yet gains a gift which he
never sought. Beware!”
Sir Bayard laughed and
leaned forward, his unease quite dispelled by the strange warning. “I see now
why you wished to speak with my squire, for I have little that I hold dear,
desire less and seek no gifts at all.”
The man slumped back
down upon the stone. “I have done as I was bid.” His tone was stiff and hurt.
“One may do all that is
asked, and yet still fall short.”
“It should have been
him, and not you.”
Sir Bayard let his
shoulders rise and fall, just as a man’s fortunes might. “On that we are in
agreement.”
“It is no fault of mine
if some evil befalls. I have done as I was bid.”
“I shall hold you
entirely blameless. Yet I will go.”
“You are firm?”
“Hardly,” Sir Bayard
laughed. “I am filled with anxieties and fears. I doubt my every word and deed.
Yet I will go.”
That seemed to satisfy
the man. “Our thoughts fly to heaven or hell, yet our paths cleave ever
between.” He beckoned again towards the woods. “The path awaits. You have but
to tread upon it.”
Sir Bayard bowed as
best he could in the saddle, picked up the reins and urged his horse forward. It
had not gone more than a few steps before a thought occurred to him. He turned
in his saddle, and called back, “Bid by whom?”
But the stone was bare,
and the man had gone.
“I should have expected
that,” he confided to his horse, patting its neck.
It twitched its coat,
exhaled sharply, and shook its head. In amusement, Sir Bayard suspected. “Come,
faithless counselor,” he growled, though not unkindly. “Let us see what stirred
our guide to such excitement.”
He saw very little. The
trees grew thick and close to the winding road, and soon Sir Bayard could see
neither the way ahead nor the path behind. The trees were not tall, some little
more than twice his height, but their branches were many and low. Their
constant buffering and swatting forced him to dismount and walk ahead, leading
his horses behind. Their dark eyes regarded him with disappointment.
“I could not turn
aside, not after being challenged so,” Sir Bayard explained to them. “What kind
of knight would I be, if I shrank from a mere road?”
Dim light pattered down
from cracks in the weave of wood over his head. The was little sound but
footfalls on the moss-slick flagstones, the patient plodding of his horses, and
muffled wind, the breathy sigh of creation. A small nutshell world, barely
wider than an arm span, filled only by the endless progression of step upon
step.
“They would call me
timid.” He thought about that. “If anybody ever learned of it.” A long silence
followed. “Well, I would have known. That is what matters.”
The horses listened
with weary indifference.
The howling of wolves
or the jeering of crows would have been less unsettling than the patient
silence, Sir Bayard thought. The stillness wore away at the walls between
moments. Time was devoured by repetition, reduced to a single Now that went on
and on. It seemed he had always been here; he was forever walking this path.
And then there was a
clearing.
A nearly perfect circle
of open space, two dozen strides across, under a grey dome of impenetrable
cloud. Concentric within the clearing stood a ring of man-high stones, no two
exactly alike in shape or color, but evenly spaced and smoothly polished.
Within the circle were two figures. One lying on the ground, one sitting beside
it.
The figure on the
ground was a woman, fair of face, dressed in a regal white dress trimmed in
gold. One hand was pressed to her side, and the dress and ground were dark with
blood. She lay still.
By the body sat a young
girl, no more than 10 winters of age, delicate of feature, with large amber
eyes that flashed towards Bayard as he entered the clearing. Girl and knight
regarded one another in silence.
“What strange happening
is this? Lost treasure, failed desire or unexpected gift?” Sir Bayard whispered
to himself. “All three?”
The girl cocked her
head but made no reply.
Sir Bayard cleared his
throat. Tentatively, he asked, “What has befallen here?”
The girl looked down at
the body. Her sharp fingers stroked the woman’s hair in skittering, spider
rushes.
“Are you hurt?” He
waited. “Were you attacked?” He might have been speaking to himself. He stepped
back to his rouncey and drew his sword, looking about the clearing again. No
animals moved. No birds sang.
He took a step closer
to the girl, another, then stopped. Reluctant to stand within the ring of stones.
“Are you—” Sir Bayard hesitated. “Your looks and mien are strange to me. Are
you one of the fey folk?”
The girl looked up at
him with unblinking eyes. “Are you one of the fey folk?” she asked. It was a
musical voice, part songbird, part rushing water, part harp, part choir. It put
him in mind of his home over the sea.
“I am a stranger here,”
he averred. Better to neither admit nor deny. He feared he had trespassed upon
some arcane feud, and that she might cast some glamour upon him. “I am merely passing
through. And you?”
“I am a stranger here.
I am merely passing through.”
“That is good,” he
nodded in relief.
“That is good,” she
nodded back.
He wanted to be gone,
to put this strange child and whatever woe had befallen her behind him. But
could not. What kind of knight would he be, if he abandoned a child?
“Will you ride—” he
said, turning to gesture towards his horse. He stopped and blinked. The girl
was sitting astride the rouncey. “—with me?”
“Ride with you,” she
echoed with a sharp nod.
A bark of laughter
burst from his chest in surprise. “What a quick thing you are, little nightingale!”
he grinned. “What is your name?”
“Name?”
“Yea, by what name
shall I call you? Let us give you a name, then. Nightingale … Abigail perhaps?”
“A-bi-gail,” she said, letting
the name linger on her lips, as if tasting it. She nodded once. “Abigail.”
“Very well then,
Abigail.” His smile faded. “There is something I must do first. My second
burial today, let us hope it is the last. Luckily, there are stones close at
hand.”
Sir Bayard turned back
to the ring and found it empty. The ground was still dark, the outline of the
woman’s form still visible in flattened grass, but of the body there was no
sign.
“This is becoming a
habit,” he muttered. “All that I see vanishes, as if the world is unravelling
behind my heels.”
He squinted back along
the road, but it was hidden in oak and shadows. It might still be there. If he
turned around, he might find the stone the hermit had sat on, the long slope,
the rushing river, the boy’s cairn. It would still be there, surely. It must
still be there.
“Well, what of it?” Sir
Bayard said aloud. The girl, Abigail, watched him intently. “I am here now,
that is all that matters.”
“That is all that
matters,” Abigail agreed.
Sir Bayard collected
the horses’ reins and led them towards the far side of the clearing, where the
road led on, plunging again into the narrow gloom. “Where shall I take you?” he
asked the girl. “As far as the forests’ edge?”
“As far as the forests’
edge.”
The knight turned away
so she would not see him grimace. Such a simple thing, a songbird in truth,
cheerfully echoing back his words. Perhaps the horror of what had happened had
robbed her of her wits. A bitter fate, to lose your past. It was like losing a
part of oneself.
The trees closed in
again. The silence felt twice as oppressive now that he was no longer alone. To
relieve the silence and reassure himself that time continued in its normal
course, he began to talk.
“We ride to Cornwall,
do you know it? I am told it is a fair country, with many pleasant shores and bays.
King Mark rules there now.” Sir Bayard turned and looked over his shoulder, and
the girl looked blankly at him. “Both king and kingdom are new, his realm
carved in the days since the deaths of King Uther and Duke Gorlois.”
She was as still and placid
as a lake.
“And well you might be
surprised. Yes, the selfsame Duke Gorlois who was husband to Igraine, the
mother of King Arthur Pendragon.” His words sank into her depths without a
trace.
“King Arthur? Camelot?
The Knights of the Round Table? No, of course they mean nothing to you. Well,
then. I am no shaper or gleeman, but let me tell the tale as best I can: In the
days of Uther Pendragon, when he was king of all England, there was a mighty
duke in Cornwall who held war against him. And the duke was called the Duke of
Terrabil … or no, was it Tintagel?”
Abigail listened with
bright-eyed focus, never interrupting or commenting, only nodding in agreement
and acceptance of it all.
Sir Bayard tried to
tell her of the sword in the stone, of Merlin and the Lady of the Lake, of
Excalibur, and of the Round Table, though he found many of the names and faces
had faded. There were too many swords, in stones and lakes and presented by
mysterious ladies, too many battles, too much time.
It was strange to think
you could stand in a moment, every detail bright and clear and fresh and you
could say to yourself, remember this, and in a week or month or a year it
was gone, as surely as smoke on the wind. Vanished into nothing. He couldn’t even
recall the touch of King Ban’s blade upon his shoulder anymore.
His words floundered
and drowned in silence. “Ah, pay me no mind,” he said at last. “What need has a
girl your age for stories of magic and knights?”
They walked in silence
for a long while.
“Are you a knight?”
Abigail asked.
Sir Bayard whipped
around, dropping in the reins in shock. “What did you say?”
“Are you a knight?”
“You can speak!” He
immediately felt foolish again. He coughed to cover his embarrassment. “Well,
yes, I am a knight.”
“Of the Round Table?”
she asked.
Sir Bayard winced. It
was an innocent question, innocently asked, yet still it stung. “No, my child.”
“Why not?”
“I am neither one of
King Arthur’s nephews, nor one of King Bors’ sons,” he laughed bitterly, then
instantly regretted his jibe. It was unworthy, as bad as one of Sir Agravaine’s
jokes, and it would mean nothing to the girl. Besides, what kind of knight
would he be, if he sought refuge in excuses? “In truth, I have not done any
deeds of renown, nor had any great adventures.”
That was true, he
thought, and surely nothing to be ashamed of. And yet, and yet. The admission
stank of mediocrity. What had he achieved, save to let his squire die and then wander
lost in a forest?
Abigail seemed
cheerfully unconcerned. “What is a ‘deed of renown’?”
Sir Bayard blinked. “Why,
acts of bravery, valor, charity, mercy and justice. Such as…” He reached for an
example. “Such as Sir Gareth, who bested the Green Knight, the Blue and the Red
for the love of the Lady Lynette. And Sir Breunor, who, ah, did much the same
thing I suppose. Who else? Sir Lancelot du Lac, who slew the villainous Sir
Turquine.”
“Could you have slain
Sir Turquine?”
There was a needle
sharpness to her voice that made Sir Bayard look back again. If she had been
warmly attentive before, now Abigail’s gaze was a hot-black coal burning into
him.
“Well, I.” He laughed a
little. “Sir Turquine bested many knights, including Sir Ector and Sir Lionel.
He was a brute, half again the height of a normal man. Sir Lancelot is the
finest knight in the world, and yet even he did not win easily.”
“You would have
failed?”
“I would have tried, I
suppose. What kind of knight would I be, if I had not challenged him?”
“You would have
failed.” She looked away.
“I suppose.” Sir
Bayard’s shoulders fell. “Does this—is there—forgive me for asking, but what
happened in the glade? Who was the woman? Your mother? Were you attacked?”
“If I said ‘Yes’, what
would you do?” She did not look back, and the music in her voice was gone,
replaced by dry and sneering cold. “Some deed of renown?”
“I would seek justice.
What kind of knight would I be, if I did not?”
“You would fail.”
“You are—any man might—that
is unfair.” Almost certainly true, he knew, and that was what stung. If the
woman in the glade had been killed by some half-giant monster, an ageing knight
would pose little challenge. “These are not the matters a young girl should
concern herself with.”
“And what matters
should I concern myself with?”
“Ah. As to that.” He
frowned. “I am unsure. I have no daughters of my own.”
Abigail nodded curtly, and
said no more. He had already failed her, Sir Bayard knew, failed in this as he
had failed in all other things, tried to muddle through and ended in
disappointment.
The stranger had been
right, it should have been his squire, he thought. Two new souls discovering
the world together. Not this old and addled man with his faded memories and
second-hand glory.
“It will be nightfall
soon,” he said to change the subject, looking up and noticing the sky, so long
colorless and pale, was swiftly growing dark. He had quite lost track of the
time.
“I see.”
“We should find
somewhere to camp.”
“Where?”
“I do not know.”
“I see.”
“Somewhere out of the
wind and weather, I suppose.”
“You suppose?”
“A woodcutter’s cabin or
lord’s keep perhaps, but where would we find one in a forest such as this?”
Abigail tutted. “Over
there?”
“Over—” He squinted
through the trees, then his eyes widened. Sure enough, there was a great,
square-sided stone tower rising above the treetops, a black pillar against the
grey shadow sky. Orange light burned in tall windows. “—how did I not see
that?”
“How did the old man
not see it? A mystery, truly.”
Sir Bayard inhaled
sharply, but let the barb pass. “Come,” he said, leading the horses from the
road.
The keep was encircled
by a wall of grey and ochre stone that erupted from the ground just over a
stride from the last trees. There was no gate, only a bare arch, unguarded.
Beyond, Sir Bayard could see a stony inner courtyard, a few wooden buildings
huddling against the inner side of the wall, and the tower itself. A path from
the gateway lead at a gentle curve to a single door, bound in black metal.
Sir Bayard stood under
the archway, and cocked his head. There was faint music, a lyre or harp,
something plaintive and slow. It put him in mind of King Arthur, but his mind’s
eye saw not King Arthur and the glory of Camelot, but rather King Arthur upon a
battlefield, his knights dead about his feet. King Arthur pierced through by a
spear, smiling and saying, “Look at what I have accomplished.” Gesturing to the
slaughter about him. “Look what I have won.”
Sir Bayard blinked and
shook himself. “Do you hear that?”
“What?”
“The music.”
“Well, of course,”
Abigail said. “I’ve been listening to it since we saw the tower.”
“Does it not seem—” his
fingers felt the air, as if to weigh it. “Sorrowful to you?”
“What of it?” she
shrugged. “Are you unmanned by a sad song, Sir Knight?”
There was no answer he
could make that would satisfy her, he knew, or even satisfy himself. The vision
was a passing fancy, nothing more. With an angry shrug of his own he stamped
under the archway, towards the keep. The music grew louder as he approached,
each solemn note clear in the night air.
Sir Bayard reached for
the door, fist poised. The music stopped. In the silence, he shot a look back
at Abigail. She sat with arms folded across her chest, a single eyebrow arched
in an impatient, Well? He shrugged and rapped twice, the door rattling
against its metal hinges.
Almost immediately, it
swung easily and noiselessly open.
A man stood in the
doorway, of middling height and build, with a plain and pleasant face and
dressed all in grey: A simple, grey knee-length tunic and trousers, with a
short grey cloak pinned at the breast by a round, silver brooch.
“Another guest?” the
man said with a smile. There was something instantly familiar about his voice.
“And to think I was worried I might have to dine alone tonight! Now my house is
doubly blessed.” He bowed and beckoned them inside. “Do come in, good sir
knight, and fair maiden. We were just about to begin.”
“Maiden?” Sir Bayard
chuckled. “I see that whatever this castle lacks in neighbors, it makes up for
in courtesy. Abigail is—” He turned and stopped. Frowned.
In the glade, he had
been sure she’d been a girl of no more than 10. But now, he saw he had clearly
been mistaken. The figure she cut through the sharp shadows and saffron light
was nearly as tall as himself. No mere child.
“Is?” the man prompted.
“My … ward.” Sir Bayard
finished lamely, still confused.
“Well, you are both
most welcome.”
Sir Bayard hardly heard
him. He looked sidelong at Abigail again, as though he might catch her reverting
into a child when he wasn’t paying attention. But no, clearly she stood poised
upon the cusp of womanhood. The light, yes, that must be it. Some trick of the
light. He looked down at the reins still held in his hand.
“Horses,” Abigail
prompted.
“Yes?”
“Is there somewhere we
can stable our horses?” Abigail asked.
Sir Bayard nodded
quickly. Yes, stable. That was right. Good question.
“Your pardon, yes, the
stables are over there,” replied the man. “There should still be room for two
more. Apologies, but I am without servants. Though I am sure an old campaigner
such as yourself is more than capable?”
Abigail wordlessly
handed Bayard the rouncey’s reins. The stable was far across the courtyard. Or.
No. The stable was in front of him. Getting there had taken forever; it had
taken an instant. The building was too low; he could not touch the rafters.
There was no space inside; it was echoingly empty. Stable. Stall. Saddle,
shield, sword, armor. Feed.
There was another horse
in the stable. White, with a long silver mane. Not just white, whiter than
white, glowing white, luminous like the moon, illuminating the whole stable. Stars
under its skin. It watched him intently as he worked, and its amber eyes
reminded him of … something. He raised a hand to run it down the other horse’s
muzzle.
Sir Bayard blinked. He
was outside the stable. The air was cool on his upraised palm. Abigail was
looking at him oddly, so he quickly lowered it, made a show of wiping his palm
on his tunic. Fooling nobody.
Their host beckoned again
and Bayard was inside. A sailor on a ship, a passenger in his own body. The
door floated past, he flowed along a short corridor, towed along in the wake of
their ever-smiling host.
“A most curious place,”
he murmured.
“It has a certain timeless
quality, don’t you think?” their host said. “You’ll see what I mean, by the
by.”
“You are alone?”
“Oh, the forest folk
look after me. And there are guests, from time to time. It is not so lonely—I
barely notice the time pass, aha.”
The corridor opened
into the main hall. A fire filled the hearth, and before it was a long table,
laden with bowls and plates, fish and bread and stew. Four chairs, one at
either end, two on the side facing the fire.
A shadow sat at the far
end of the table.
“Sir Breuse,” their
host announced. “Please join me in welcoming two more travelers in the night:
Sir Bayard and the Lady Abigail.”
The shadow called Sir
Breuse stretched, like a pillar of living stone, growing taller, then taller,
still taller. He moved with sureness and confidence, and his smile had the easy
shine of a courtier.
“Welcome.” His voice
was leather and honey, a voice used to both persuasion and command. “You are a
knight then, Sir Bayard?”
“I am,” Sir Bayard
admitted, though standing before this man he had never felt less a knight than
he did at that moment.
“Of the Round Table?”
A miracle: Just when Sir
Bayard thought he could grow no smaller, he found a way to shrink into nothing.
He heard Abigail stifle a snicker. “No. Not of the Round Table.”
“Ah.” Sir Breuse’s
shrug was at once both pleased and dismissive. He sank back into his seat, and
Sir Bayard let go of a breath he hadn’t been aware he’d been holding.
“And you, sir?” Stiffly
polite. What kind of knight would he be, if he was uncourteous?
“A knight of the Round
Table? An amusing thought, but no,” Sir Breuse chuckled. “Can you imagine me following that lot? No,
no. A fox among the hens.”
“They are the greatest
knights of the realm.”
“By some measures, I
suppose.”
“What others are there?”
“Oh, I only mean I do
not hold with the slavish followers of hollow ideals. Mercy, justice, what are
these? Mere words.” Sir Breuse sniffed. He tapped his broad chest. “Might is
the only true arbiter of rightness.”
“Sit, sit,” their host
urged.
“Who is your liege lord
then?” Sir Bayard asked as he and Abigail sat, himself on the left and closest
to Sir Breuse, Abigail to the right. He glanced at her, and noticed her
attention was fixed upon the other knight. He felt a hot-white jab of anger and
knew it was unworthy to be jealous of the attention, and the needle grew only
hotter.
Their host took up a
lyre and struck a thoughtful note.
“Lord?” Sir Breuse
echoed.
There was food in front
of Sir Bayard and he reached for a knife and remembered what he had heard of the
fey and accepting their food and drink. The host seemed human enough, and yet,
strangely not. He lowered his hand and let it rest on the table. “Yes, who do
you serve?”
“My time is my own to
command,” Sir Breuse replied, swatting the question away with a wave of his
hand. “All men have but one life, and it is senseless to waste it serving
another. Don’t you agree?”
“But—surely—well. Who
knighted you?”
“I knighted myself,”
Sir Breuse grinned. “I did not wait for others to tell me what I am or am not.”
“That isn’t—I mean you
can’t,” Sir Bayard stammered, then turned towards their host. “Does that not
seem strange to you?”
The man’s fingers
stilled upon the lyre. He tilted his head with a kind of noncommittal who-really-knows
grimace. “I have seen many strange things in the—well, in the time I have lived
here, but a knight knighting himself is easily the least of them. For example,
when you were in the stables, did you see Sir Breuse's horse?”
“His horse?”
Sir Breuse was nodding,
smiling, evidently anticipating this turn in the conversation.
“You did not remark
upon it? Truly a wonderous animal.”
Sir Bayard frowned in
thought. So long ago, only a few moments surely, but already sunk into mire. It
was all a rippling blur, like looking up at the world from the bottom of a
pool, but yes, there had been another horse in the stable, now that he thought
about it. “The white one with the silver mane? That is yours?”
Abigail looked at him
sharply.
“It is,” Sir Breuse nodded.
“Do not be so humble,”
their host urged. “Let them hear the tale, just as you told me.”
“What tale?”
“How he won the horse,”
the grey man said.
“Won it?”
“The spoils of war,”
Sir Breuse beamed proudly. “Mine by right of conquest.”
Abigail clamped an iron
hand on Sir Bayard’s arm.
“Spoils?”
“I killed the former
owner,” Sir Breuse smiled.
The hand on his arm
became a claw.
“It is a fey horse, as
you may have noticed. The fey inhabit stone circles in this wood, and they
guard their realms jealously. They hide within the circles to ambush lone
travelers. A fey knight sprang upon me.” Sir Breuse began to wave his eating
knife about the air as he grew more animated. “He smote me a terrible blow on
the shield. I was nearly borne to the ground. My shield was split and ruined. I
cast it aside and gripped my sword in both hands. Long, long we fought until,
at last, he began to tire. I hewed through his neck and he vanished even as his
head fell from his shoulders.”
Abigail sprang to her
feet. Face pale, trembling.
“Forgive me my lady,”
the grey man said hurriedly. “Such bloody talk is not for one of delicate
constitution. I should have realized. Forgive me!”
She looked at the man
blankly, fists clenched to her sides. Her gaze rendered him utterly
insubstantial, a nothing man thin as air. Sir Breuse sat back in his chair,
smugly satisfied.
Sir Bayard quickly
shoved back his chair and took her arm. “Perhaps I might escort my charge to a
room?”
“Certainly. This way,
if you please.”
The room was as plain
as its owner, a modest chamber of stone with a single small window, hunting
tapestries hung upon the walls, and a crackling fire in the hearth. The bed was
too small, Sir Bayard noted with a sigh, and resigned himself to sleeping on
the floor. Their host bid them goodnight, and closed the door with a heavy thunk.
As soon as they were
alone Abigail was before him, speaking low and urgently, “It was him.”
Sir Bayard stood a
moment, saying nothing, only nodding, then pausing, then nodding again as
matters slid slowly into place. Of course, Sir Breuse’s story had been a lie.
There never was another knight, only a woman, lying murdered in the grass.
Still, he hesitated.
“You are certain?”
Her mouth tightened in
disgust. “Of course, I am certain. Are you afraid?”
“Certainly not,” Sir
Bayard stiffened. “No, not that.” He wrung his hands, fingers throttling one
another in muted frustration. “But he is a guest here, you see. What kind of
knight would I be, if I insulted our host by assaulting his guest?”
“Insult?” she hissed.
“Courtesy and manners, are those the highest virtues?”
“High enough. What
would you have me do?”
“You have to ask? I
want justice.”
“You want me to
challenge him?”
“I want him dead. I
care not how it is achieved. Find his room here in the keep. A dagger in his
sleep.”
“I could never!” Sir
Bayard gasped. “What sort of knight would stoop to murder? I would be shamed
for life.”
“Honor and politeness.
Now I see what kind of knight you are. Too meek to do what is right. This is
why you do not sit at the Round Table.”
“Unfair,” he protested.
“Very well, you are right. He is young and tall and strong and would doubtless
kill me easily. A challenge would achieve naught but my own death. If you wish
justice, we must go to King Mark, or else King Arthur.”
She scoffed at the suggestion. “Both are as
far away as eternity. The villain is here. I am here. I will not let—” Abigail
shook her head. “Ah, this is useless. Nothing. Pay it no mind. Sleep now, I am
sure that is the one thing you can do: Sleep.”
Abigail claimed the
bed, and Sir Bayard was in no mood to ask her to share. He curled up as best he
could on the rug in front of the fire.
When Sir Bayard awoke,
he found himself alone on the cold stone floor. The fire had gone out and lemon
light stretched in lazy stripes along the floor. The bed was empty.
Sir Bayard rubbed
fiercely at his eyes, but this failed to produce any change. There was a basin
of icy cold water, and the touch of it sucked the breath from between his
teeth. He splashed it hastily across his face, ran wet fingers through beard
and hair, then stumbled his way down the stairs. Their host was seated at the
table, strumming his lyre gently.
“The, ah, lady
Abigail—have you—did the—have you seen my charge this morning?” Sir Bayard
asked.
“Oh, yes, she rode out
about an hour past,” the grey man said with a shrug.
“What?” Sir Bayard
exploded. He reached to grab the man’s tunic, caught himself just in time, let
his hands close on nothing. “Rode out? By herself? Where to? On which horse?”
“Aye, made her way
straight to the stables, leaped on your grey rouncey and galloped out the gate
as though the west wind was at her back.”
“You saw all this and
said nothing, did nothing, did not think to wake me?”
The man frowned at him.
“Why such concern? Isn’t this what you wanted?” He placed his hands over Sir
Bayard’s, and gently forced them down to his sides. “You never asked for this
burden, and now she is no longer yours. You are free, sir knight. Go on, make
your way to Cornwall, pledge to serve King Mark, or turn aside, go back to
Logres, or else sail back to your home in Ponthieu, do what you will with the
time that is left to you. This was never your quest, and it is out of your
hands now.”
Sir Bayard’s shoulders
sagged. “I suppose,” he sighed. He had proved no better a guardian than he had
been a knight, but what of it? The eyes of none were upon him, his failure
disappointed none, save only himself and even then, only a little. He should
count himself lucky to have lost no more than a horse.
A knife-edged thought
pierced him. “What of Sir Breuse?”
“He departed too,
shortly before your lady.” The grey man paused, then nodded. “Ah, you suspect she
was pursuing him. Well, he is perhaps better suited to serve as the companion
for a young maiden. Do not think on it too harshly.”
Sir Bayard brushed past
him without answering, heading straight for the stables. His courser still
there. Good. It was faster than the rouncey, he might still be in time. Saddle,
shield, sword. Armor? No, no time. No time. Never enough time.
The grey man had
followed him, and now leaned against the stable door as he watched Sir Bayard throw
the saddle across the courser’s back, then bend to tighten the girth strap. “Come
now, Sir Bayard, this is madness,” the man said. “What is it that you think you
might accomplish?”
Sir Bayard hardly knew
himself. He put a foot in the stirrup and swung himself up, took up the reins.
“Keep her from harm as best I can,” he said. “What kind of knight—”
“—would you be if you
did not?” the other man finished. “What matter? Succeed or fail, your legacy
will not change. No one will know.”
“I know.” He was out of
the stable, the archway in the outer wall before him. “But what else can I do?”
He gave the courser’s body a squeeze with his legs, sending it into a trot,
then faster, faster again and faster, until they flew beneath the wall and any
response from the other man was lost on the wind.
Winter had come to the
far side of the wood. The grass was heavy and stiff with frost, and crunched
under the horse’s hooves. Grey skies gave way to a deep, crisp blue, and the
sun was a bright nail, burning with cold iron flame that gave no heat. The
breaths of Sir Bayard and the courser came in thick, soulful puffs.
There, across the
field, were two figures, one mounted, one on foot.
Sir Breuse was there,
astride his shimmering charger, clad in steel from head to foot. The visor of
his helm was closed, hiding his face. He held a long lance in his hand, and the
point of it rested over Abigail’s heart. She stood before the horse, head
thrown back, uncaring, defiant. She did not shiver or tremble despite the cold
and the steel against her breast, a summer flame amid the frost.
“Abigail!” Sir Bayard
cried, spurring his courser forward.
Sir Breuse shifted his
attention, swiveling to point the lance at Bayard.
“Ah, the gallant
rescuer,” Sir Breuse mocked.
“Coward,” Sir Bayard
seethed, reining his horse to a halt. “What kind of knight are you?”
“The kind that does not
care what little men like you think.”
“Face me! Face me like a knight!”
“With what?” Sir Breuse
laughed. “You have neither armor nor lance, old man. Turn around and go back.
Your time is over, your days are done.”
“And yet I will smite
you, if I can.”
He charged forward.
Sir Breuse dug in his
spurs. The two plunged together. Sir Breuse did not even bother to aim his
lance, but let it hit Sir Bayard’s shield, full and square in the center, over
the full moon emblazed there. The impact hammered into his shield arm, wood
split and shattered, a dagger rain of splinters flying, then an instant later
it felt as though a giant kicked his side.
There was air. The sun.
Bright, blindingly bright light. Then darkness.
Blue. Cold and
indifferent blue. The sky. He was on his back, on the ground, looking up at the
empty hole of the sky and feeling the empty hole in his side. Air. There was
air but he could not breathe. Filling his lungs was like a spike in his chest.
He could manage only short, gasping pants, and even then, each one was a blade
inside.
The sky darkened. A
figure stood over him.
“I did tell you,” Sir
Breuse said mildly. His voice echoed hollowly behind his visored helm. His
sword was drawn, but he sheathed it, and drew a long dirk instead.
“Mercy,” Sir Bayard
gasped. “I yield, for pity’s sake.”
Sir Breuse laughed.
“Many knights earn names for their deeds or character. Sir Griflet, the Fist of
God. Sir Ywain of the White Hands. Do you know what they call me? Sir Breuse
the Pitiless.” He gave a sad little shake of his head, an awkward little rattle
of the helm. “I did warn you.”
“What else could I do?”
“Nothing, I suppose,”
Sir Breuse agreed. “Nothing at all.”
He knelt by Sir
Bayard’s side. With his free hand, he lifted his visor, exposing his face. A
faint smile pulled at his features. “Farewell,” said Sir Breuse. He raised his
blade. And. Stopped.
Sir Bayard lay panting,
waiting. He waited.
Sir Breuse was a
statue.
As Sir Bayard squinted
upwards, he realized the man had not even blinked. No breath passed through his
nose. The upraised hand did not waver, the dirk it held did not move even a
hair’s breadth.
Abigail stood behind
Sir Breuse. Sir Bayard had not seen her approach; she was not there, then she
was. She easily plucked the dagger from Sir Breuse’s unfeeling fingers and held
it up before her eyes. She ran a finger along the blade and pricked her finger
with the tip.
“What—what is—” Sir
Bayard tried to force the words between gasps.
“Justice,” she said
sweetly, then tuned the dagger around and slid it slowly, gently into Sir
Breuse’s neck, between the bottom of his jaw and the top of his mail coif.
Right up to the hilt. The man neither whimpered nor cried out, and not even a
drop of blood appeared at the edge of the ghastly wound. It was as though she
were carving wood.
Abigail stepped back
and eyed the knight critically, an artist evaluating their work, and nodded
once, sharp and decisive. At the gesture, Sir Breuse suddenly arched his back,
gurgling and bubbling and reaching and scrabbling desperately at his throat,
eyes bulging, blood now pouring from an open mouth that moved and made no sound
and he pitched forward and writhed and shook and kicked and kicked and kicked before
he lay still.
“Why,” Bayard began. “Because—because
he—”
“Because he stole my
horse.”
“Your horse? Only that?
What of your mother?”
“Mother? Ah, no, still
you do not understand.” Her smile was a little sad, filled with gently pity. A
mother despairing over a slow but earnest child. “There is and always has been only
me.”
Her hand pulled him to
his feet, her strong hand, so cool, so sure, so steady, and he was a feeble
reed and the movement made his breath whistle between clenched teeth. Bayard
could see now that Abigail’s figure was the figure of the woman in the glade, Abigail’s
features were her features.
“Thank you. And
farewell.” She turned to go.
“What?” Bayard stood,
wobbling and wheezing, blinking in astonishment. “Wait,” he called after her.
“Wait!”
“Nothing waits.” She
was walking away. “Nothing ever waits.”
“Without any—so
sudden—that is all?”
Abigail looked back and
tilted her head at him. “What more did you want? I shall take up my
guardianship anew. Our paths diverge here. As to your fate, that is in your
hands.”
Bayard looked about,
utterly adrift. He was lost. He was lost, he was lost, he was lost. His purpose
was gone, and he was lost. Alone and hollow and lost. “What do I do?” The white
canvas of the world offered no answers. His arms flapped as though to gesture
at something, grasping nothing. “Should I continue to King Mark? Or return to
Logres? What do I do?”
Her smile was sad now.
“The world has changed since you entered my forest, Sir Knight. King Mark is
long dead. King Arthur too, and the Round Table is no more. Saxon kings rule
Britain now.”
Sir Bayard stared her,
words sliding through him clean and hot as a lance. They didn’t make sense.
Couldn’t make sense. “It was but a day. Two.”
“Twenty years.”
“I …” He felt sure he
had turned to glass. Another breath might shatter him. He could feel the
fractures forming, spider-fine cracks running through every part of him that
tried to understand what she was saying.
“Time moves slower in
the fey.”
“What was the—what did
it mean?”
“Mean?”
“A gift. He said there
would be a gift.” Sir Bayard squeezed shut his eyes, trying to remember. It had
been so very, very long ago. “An unlooked-for gift, he said.”
“And have you not
received the greatest gift of all?”
“What?” He tried to
laugh, but none would come. “I have spent the last of my life and days guarding
a girl who neither asked for nor desired my protection, indeed despised me for
all my faults, been wounded near unto death and in return the only gift I
receive is to watch her grow into a stranger and leave forever. What kind of
gift is this? There is no glory here. None will ever mark what I have done.”
“All very true,” she
replied and then she did go, she did walk away and vanished into the woods and the
wind stirred and erased her footprints, leaving him old and alone and standing
amid the empty field.
The wind howled. Bayard
looked around unseeing, recognizing nothing.
He stood there for a
long time.
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